Thursday, September 30, 2010

Getting fatter

I just stop breastfeeding my baby a week before Ramadhan. A month plus before that, I just went through a procedure for my hips and due to that, I am not suppose to do any exercise. Oh man...

I love to eat. Variety is the key. I may not take rice like other Malaysians do, but I do love other kind of food. But as I eat, I usually do my runnings in the morning and some exercises in the evening. Besides that, I was breastfeeding my child. Calories was burning while I was eating. I was able to maintain my weight.

When I had to stop exercising, I do realized that my weight increased a bit but when I stop breastfeeding my baby... it was obvious that I need to stop eating. I really need to stop eating. That is just so hard. I love food.

Now I have a mission. I really need to lose the weight as my choices in my wardrobe is not as many as before. In three months, I will get back to size M/L. Pray for me kay...

Sunday, September 26, 2010

Iran vs the world

I honestly do not really understand what is happening between the western and Iran. Why are they so 'dengki' that Iran is developing their own nuclear power. Is it so hard to believe that there are other countries that are ready to defend themselves or to attack others?

Iran is basically digging their own grave. But under the grave, they have a place that they are so safe. hahahaha!!! I think I am sooo right. But of course, the western are always in denial.

For the western, hahahaha!!! You do realized that you all look so 'cuak' with the statement that you have been giving right? and for Iran, if the western or whoever may attack you one day (May Allah protect you), please do not just defend, go and attack them back at the same time. Serves them right.

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Self absorbed

Some people they are just so self absorbed or like to see what is more wearable for themselves than look at it as if it is wearable for other people as well. That is human nature but I do not think that is the way it is just because naturally human are like that.

Few things has been happening to me and my family lately. In the incidents and things that are happening make me realized how some people could say things that base on what they believe than putting themselves in the other person's shoes.

My blog on me being pregnant has made me received a lot of emails that condemning me as a mother. They keep on telling me that I should be thankful that I got pregnant while so many others out there do not have that same opportunity. Who said that I don't. I am thankful, very-very thankful. If I did not go through this craziness during pregnancy and after pregnancy, I would volunteer myself to be a surrogate mother to my brother and sister-in-law.

Anyway from that same blog, I also got a lot of emails from mothers that went through what I went through but had no guts saying it out loud because of the judgmental attitude and so self absorbed people would do or say to them. Because of that blog, I have formed a group of women who went through the emotional turmoil during pregnancy and after pregnancy and had no support at all after trying telling people around them that it was sucks terribly.

So peeps... stop judging and start listening. In whatever is happening around you and your family. Stop thinking what your actions and that person would do what your actions would be, instead look closely and see how the hurtfulness in their eyes.

I am thankful that my husband finally saw the result of my emotional turmoil during pregnancy and after pregnancy. We have promised each other to handle what is in front of us that is sooo need our attention. Thank you Allah.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

33 today...!!!

I am 33 today... What have I done in my life? Nothing much.

I am not big shot in big company that manage thousands of people. Be good and sometimes pretend to be somebody else for the sake of the company. Dress up every morning to go to work and put on a happy face or boss face or something. There's always deadline and someone's throat you want to strangle or someone else try to strangle yours. I am a housewife that, I get up every morning, try to wake my husband and my children up for work and school. Get their breakfast ready and get them ready. Once they are gone to work or school, I am so free to do whatever I want.

In the evening, I am the driver for my kids. For Islamic classes to ballet classes. Tiring.... then cooking time. Wow!! Sound so simple but in actual fact is, it is so tiring.

Anyway... I realized that I am happier now, than before. When I was a working mother, I always got frustrated in so many things. I had to deal with so many kind of people. It is not that I do not care about them, but, they are still just people that come and go in my life, my family is a lot more than that. My guess is, that is why I am much happier now.