Adam Lambert in Malaysia... is it about him as a singer or because he is gay?

I love Adam Lambert. He has a good voice and he has a good attitude. He is perseverance and he has determination.

But, of course, Malaysians not so in general just love to make fuss about him when he was in Malaysia. Why oh why? Because he is gay.

He chose to be gay, to be a singer and to dress differently. Because of that, we have to hate him. Really?

We Malaysians need to broaden (is my spelling right) our mind. That does not mean that we need to accept the wrongs. We just need to understand there are so many kind of people in this world. They may be wrong in our mind in a fact that as a Muslim, gay is wrong. But he may have other good things inside of him. That we have to look at also.

To me, it is unfair for what they said about Adam Lambert. I am not his fan, but it is not good for a Muslim to say about another person like he is like another rubbish.

No dictation please.

Today, I have upset the whole evening. Why oh why? At first I did not realized why, but when my husband got back from work, he could see that I had a lot on my mind. Finally he managed to crack me open.

This afternoon, my mum called me. something has happened where one of my siblings has made a remark that she doesn't like to hear. I was able to understand here reasons of being upset. she told me her stories and a lot other things. Well, that is my relationship with my mum. She tells me her stories, and i just say hmm and nod at the same time. No comments, no feedback, nothing at all. I just let her talk and talk.

Well, this afternoon, she was telling me stories as usual and I was listening, as usual. But somewhere in the middle of the conversation, she started telling me what to say if a certain situation arises. Basically if I saw any of my friends' partner, spouse is cheating, I do not tell my friend. I am not allowed to say anything because it won't be good for me. I was suppose to follow exactly what she said, because she said so.

The thing is, what my mum do not know about me is, I'd rather lose my friends than doing the wrong thing by keeping the secret of cheating husband or wife from my friends. I did all this before, and of course with evidence (nowadays, handphone mostly got camera, so take pictures as evidence). Yes, i did lose their friendship at the beginning, but when they no more in denial, they became my friends again.

This is me. My mum should not even try to dictate me now any longer. I am who I am. But she did this afternoon. That was the reason I was upset the whole evening. hmmm.... i am 33. it is not that my mum cannot give me advice. Advice is different from dictating. I am what I am. am just different from most people. Only a few people who knows me as I am.

Getting fatter

I just stop breastfeeding my baby a week before Ramadhan. A month plus before that, I just went through a procedure for my hips and due to that, I am not suppose to do any exercise. Oh man...

I love to eat. Variety is the key. I may not take rice like other Malaysians do, but I do love other kind of food. But as I eat, I usually do my runnings in the morning and some exercises in the evening. Besides that, I was breastfeeding my child. Calories was burning while I was eating. I was able to maintain my weight.

When I had to stop exercising, I do realized that my weight increased a bit but when I stop breastfeeding my baby... it was obvious that I need to stop eating. I really need to stop eating. That is just so hard. I love food.

Now I have a mission. I really need to lose the weight as my choices in my wardrobe is not as many as before. In three months, I will get back to size M/L. Pray for me kay...

Iran vs the world

I honestly do not really understand what is happening between the western and Iran. Why are they so 'dengki' that Iran is developing their own nuclear power. Is it so hard to believe that there are other countries that are ready to defend themselves or to attack others?

Iran is basically digging their own grave. But under the grave, they have a place that they are so safe. hahahaha!!! I think I am sooo right. But of course, the western are always in denial.

For the western, hahahaha!!! You do realized that you all look so 'cuak' with the statement that you have been giving right? and for Iran, if the western or whoever may attack you one day (May Allah protect you), please do not just defend, go and attack them back at the same time. Serves them right.