Until today, at this point of time, my self love, is really going down the drain. My confident level, sucks most of the time.
I do believe, i am meant to be alone, i am just no one. I do what i do, thats all to it. And live my life.
Look, there are times, i eat one time a day. To make sure there are enough for my children. Yeah... They are literally can take care of themselves, but.. I am still their mother. So.. Shut up. I am being a mother now. It sucks to be poor and not having enough. Thats all i can say.
I ask for prayers. So that i can rent or buy cash for a bigger house, so that i dont need to hide when i want to cry. Now, i can only cry, when they are asleep or i was in the bathroom.
A lot of reasons to cry. Not enough for food, not enough to pay for child's psychologist, not enough to pay the rent and bills. Struggling very much. But still surviving.
May Allah grant me rezeki that is more than enough. Aameen...
