Sunday, January 27, 2008

Brad Pitt


I have never pay any attention to Brad Pitt before. I have always been in love with Will Smith and Bruce Willis. However... a few weeks ago, I saw the movie Troy. Brad Pitt is one of the actor and I just realize how yummy he is... Just look at the picture. He is so nyam-nyam...

Pokok - pokok on my lawn

This is pokok pinang... one typr of pokok pinang...


This is the fruit that from the pokok pinang. Birds love this buah... make a mess on my lawn everyday...


I have no idea what the name of this pokok. But my mum call it as pokok kucing.. Why? Because it does not stop beranak... just like a cat. All year...


This is one type of sundal malam... smells really nice..especially at night...

Celebrity's wedding

I just watched on E! Channel on celebrities' wedding in Hollywood. The amount of money that they spend for their joyful day and how elaborate the wedding was. These celebrities are competing to show the amount of money that they are willing to spend. How nice.... When the person you are planning (only planning... may not come true.. you know how hollywood are)to spend the rest of their life with spend a big amount of money to make you happy.

Right now, I am doing some arrangements for a celebrity in Malaysia for his engagement ceremony. At the same time.. of course I asked his mum if he has set the date for the wedding and the place where it is going to be. These questions is just for me to see if I could be part of it or who knows to be the wedding planner. Believe it or not, she told me... that her son is waiting for boutiques and designers to offer him on sponsoring his wedding. Actually, he was hoping that I would be one of them. To sponsor his wedding. Hearing that, I just smile at her and said... " I do charity for those who deserve not for those who has the money but not willing to pay."

I can't believe this.. He is not so famous. Quite popular but not that popular... Anyway... now you see the difference between malaysian celebrities and hollywood celebrities.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Being away from the cyberspace

My fingers itch. But I can't do much. I have been very busy with my work, stitching beads. I can't believe that I actually have so much work to do. Adding to that, my daughter is not well. She had eye infection last week, and since yesterday, she has been having fever. She has been coughing and coughing. I had to put in a little bit of flu medicine in her milk to make her sleep better at night. Well, I am tired... very tired. But right now, I still got the chance to type something on my blog. Stealing a few moments to myself.

All week I had so many things to write on my blog. I can't believe that I actually have no idea what to type on my blog. My mind went blank when a minute ago, I had so many ideas. Right ow, I am actually wondering if I am actually very-very tired that my mind are not working properly. Am I?

Since been working from home, I had more time to teach my son and prepare him for next year. Yup.. next year he will be in standard one. How time flies. Having the time to spend with my children, I started to realized that both my children are so different. Right now, I have to concentrate on my eldest son. I am not sure if he is ignorant or could not care or what. I thought he was just having this attitude towards me. Today, his teacher, Mama Yong, told me, it is the same when he is in school. He just couldn't be bothered about the importance of discipline and time and also following sequences.

His teacher told me to send him for a martial art class where this could help him to learn about discipline and develop self esteem. I need to talk to my husband on that immediately. I think I agree with his teacher. Or, swimming class would be good too.

That is on my eldest son. However, a different story for my daughter. She has a good brain and she is using her brain without any limitation. She has actually overtake her brother in so many things. Even in reading and calculating. I realized that and because of that, I had to stop teaching them at home. I do not want my son feel inferior or less thatn his sister. Her teacher, Ms Amy told me to let her be. Let her find and explore as much as she wants. But, how can I divide my time for both of them when they are always with me now. I am so confuse. Help me Ya Allah. I want my children to do good. I don't really need them to be super fantastic, but I want them to be able to a survivor and winner also i this dangerous and competitive world.

Tuesday, January 8, 2008

My nenek

Almost a month ago, I have this obsession to find out about my grandparents and their parents and parents and parents... and of course..basically the whole family tree. I was brought up in Seremban. Since I was three months old, my paternal grandma(nenek) has been staying with us. I have never known that she actually has a house back in kampung until the last year she stayed with us. At the time, I was only around 11 years old.

Looking back, it was hard for all of us. My mum was a teacher. Luckily the school was right in front of the house. I went to the same school. My mum has been teaching in the afternoon session so that when my brother and I got back from school we can have our lunch and take over taking care of our grandma. It has been a routine since I was really small. Even when I was in the kindergarten. When I am back from school, I will start to teach my nenek songs that I learned in the kindergarten(such as Ba...ba... black sheep). And nenek, will just follow. (Like she cares what I am trying to teach her). It is more of having someone to accompany each other. It goes on and on. As I grow up, I do my homework in nenek's room or near the balcony where she used to hang. One thing, because I was such a coward that I can't be alone. I'd rather be with my nenek. All evening, while I was doing my homework, nenek will start to tell me stories of her parents, her husband and her family. She will explain about all her 13 children. But, me being a kid, couldn't care less. I just listen to make her happy.

Nenek need to be assist to walk when I was 10 years old. Before that, she was able to walk on her own. She was getting older. Some of my friends recall helping me to assist my grandma to go to the toilet. So was my brother's friends (I'm pretty sure they remember that). They helped us a lot. I am not sure if we were able to cope without their help. Especially me. Sometimes, my brother had to go to shcool in the evening. So, I'll be with nenek all alone. I don't have a choice but to help her in whatever I can.

She used to tell me that her daughter just drive pass the house. At the time, I did not know that nenek has other daughters except for my auntie in Subang Jaya. She used to come and visit nenek. She stayed for a few days and left. I remember seeing nenek cry whenever she left. I believe no one saw that. Because nenek is good in keeping her feelings to herself. That is far as I know or I was just too young to know about my nenek's feelings. About her other daughter, she tried many times explaining to me who she was. But being a kid.... again, I did not bother to know.

She also told me about her husband, which is my grandpa (atuk). I can't remember much on what she told me. Little bit here and there. But I do remember the way her eyes shines whenever she talks about him. She was really proud of him. I never had the opportunity to meet him as he died when my father was only 7 years old. The thing is, I heard people said that my nenek and atuk do not have a good realationship. But I was not able to see that as nenek told me stories of atuk. I could only see how much nenek loved her husband. That was one of things I remember. She also said that my atuk is a very handsome man. I saw his picture and I agree with her.

There are times, I was rude to nenek. My mum will be so upset with me. But nenek was the one to said that I was good. She pujuk me. Well, at that point I just told my mum "Nenek tak marah pun". But now, I really regret for what I did. I was rude.

The last week of her life, she was bed ridden. She has been that way for four months. At the time, I was 12 years old. At that moment, we keep on reminding her to 'mengucap'. My father and also my cousin on my mum's side was also there. Mak Ngah (my uncle's wife) and her siblings were there too. I prayed so hard that when she died, she died easily. I saw when she took one deep breath and let go for the last time. I don't think I will ever forget that.