My son, Nuh Shahmi

 My son. Nuh Shahmi. The eldest of my children. The most kind person that I ever know. His heart is beautiful. Not because I am his mother, because this is the truth.

He is very vulnerable as he can easily be influenced by people around him, in attitude and a lot of thing.

When he was six, I found out that he is slow in learning. Very slow to some people that it irritates them. When the first time i found about his slowness, I told my husband and his family. My mum and my sister. Out of all, the only that got what I was saying was my mum. Every time I went back to her place, one of the few things she will ask is, "How is Nuh's progress?" "Are you okay in handling him?". "Bersabar.... dapat anak macam ni, maknya yang kena sabar banyak. Yana boleh sabarkan?".

Yes.. My mum was the only who understand.

My son is a bully victim, not only in school but also outside the school. His cousins do not understand him. When they ask their mothers why is Nuh can't understand what they are saying, they said "Aunty Yana tak reti ajar anak. Selalu spoon feed anak dia. Sebab tu anak dia macam tu." Sedih when I heard that. They refuse to understand my son's situation. They rather blame me and my husband.

Nuh Shahmi somehow very hardworking. He knows why I want him to be in the first or second class. So that he does not make friends with kids that is not only not smart but also naughty. (Yeah.. I am being generalised) Did I push him?No! But I do encourage him and make him understand my reasons. Because of that, he study really hard. Harder than other normal kids as he is slow in learning.

I love him no matter what. He is going to sit for his UPSR this year. I do not expect him to get 5As. Whatever he is going to get... I will still love him with all my heart...