Protecting myself

Sometimes, a smiling face tired of smiling. It is not easy to smile all the time. Smile is easy but at the same time, it is hard to do when you dont feel like smiling.

Yesterday, is one of those days that I just cant keep on smiling.

About a month ago, I bought a new wheelchair for my mum. Since that hers rosak.Brought it back to her. As I took it back.There were no manual on using it.  We were not able to figure out how to put the wheelchair on a brake. Because I have bought it for some time, I was not able to return it. Just told my parents to use however you can while I figure out what to do.

My sis called me and told me that I should not buy cheap stuff or as she said "china" stuff. She is going to buy a new one. I said go ahead. What I saw in the catalogue that was the only one that follows as what my parents wanted.

Yesterday, she brought back exactly the same as the one that I bought that is so called China made. And learned how to put the wheelchair on a brake. Weird? yup.. it is to me.

Well... what hurt me so much is, my father called me and asked me to take back the one that I bought because they want to use the one that my sis bought. Yup.. mine has no value to them, even though with much happiness explaning to me that the one that my sis bought was actually the same as what I bought. But, they prefer to use my sister's. Not mine.

This is not the first time. This is not the only story. My heart has been broken many times that it is time for me to protect my own heart now. I have enough.

Life goes on. I have to move on. Sad.. of course.. But protecting myself is more important now. I dont have the time to feel sad like this. Smiling face is on...