Being stressful

I 've been building anger and dissatisfaction inside me. Towards myself and others. Unfortunately... I let it out to my children. My daughter just cannot sit still. I was giving her dinner and her rice was all over the floor because she just could not sit still while eating her meal. I got very angry and shouted at her.

The truth is, I am angry with myself and my life. the anger that I am feeling inside explode tonight and my daughter was becoming the victim. I felt so bad that at 10pm I made her favourite meal. Bee Hoon Goreng. I have no idea what to do next...

To make something ordinary to become extra ordinary

This is how I make an ordinary kain to a beautiful kain.

1. Kain ini kosong je... without anything yet...

2. Then to highlight the kain... I jahit manik kat hujung sahaja... and also to make it heavy...

3. To make it much more nicer.. I did some free style design on the kain...

Tukang urut

Yesterday, I went to see a tukang urut in Beranang. He is very famous... well at least my brother told me that he is.

When I arrived with my hubby and my parents, there were another three people before us. So we waited. The tukang urut look so serious. Not even one single word came out from his mouth unless to ask the problem of the person who came to see him.

Then it was my turn. I said my salam. And he answered. He asked what was my problem and I answered. I thought just like how with others, he will just started to urut, but instead, he started to chit chating with me. Non stop. At the same time, he was still urut me, at his living room. My mom who was looking at me from the other side of the room was wondering, why was this old man so friendly with me. I was wondering the same. Until now I have no answer to that. Luckily he continue to be very friendly when it was my father's turn. So, I don't feel to creepy.

But my experience urut by this old man, I will never forget. When you look at his hand and his face when he touches my leg and back, as though he was doing nothing much until my hubby saw how my face was turning red. It was so painful when he did his urut. The same thing happen to my father. It doesn't seem that he was putting any pressure on my father's knee. But from my father's face, I know he was experiencing the same thing as I had before.

It is so amazing how many people still go to see tukang urut to seek help. I am one of them. I thought with the modern technologies way of thinking. Most people no longer seek help from tukang urut like the one that I went to yesterday.

That's my girl...

This is my daughter when she is hiding under the bedsheet... and thought I could never find her...

This is, when she realized that I know where she was...

There she is...!

Doctor

I went to see the doctor just now. A different doctor actually. To get a second opinion. He basically told me the same thing as the my doctor has said. But right now, the assistant irritates me. Berleter... nag... nag.... nag... About ubat lah, about exercise and macam-macam lagi. This is good, that not good. Doctor pun tak bising like her. I think... I should just not go to that doctor again.

Thank you Kak Ana

This was given to me by Kak Ana, my cousin about 5 years ago. Masa tu, I just started working around 2 years. Since my work banyak jumpa client, and she don't really need the earrings anymore, she gave all of these to me. Klasik kan.

This one one is very simple... but too big for me...

Yang ini is the only one yang I ever wore... yang lain.. kurang keberanian.. sebab cantik sangat...

Anyway... thank you Kak Ana.

A RM10 skirt or maybe RM15

This skirt is very cheap actually.. but after improvise with manik and all.. patch with kain batik... ramai kata I pakai designer's skirt... hahaha!!!

10 year old eye shadow

10 years ago, a good friend of mine bought a set of eye shadow that do not suits her skin tone... so she gave it to me. Guess what... after such a long time, I am still her good friend and the eye shadow is still the one that I have been using most days. About two hours ago.. I just told her that I still have the eye shadow that she gave me... She was shock as she herself have forgotten about the eye shadow. The tqo colours are totally out, only left the two darker colours...

Losing weight

I 've been trying to lose weight for the past 6 years. Basically after I gave birth to my eldest son. Sucks... never really happen as my weight maintains the same. No losing and no gaining at all.
When I was having trouble with health. I got really frustrated and very unhappy. Guess what... by feeling unhappy constantly I lose weight. I lose 7 kilos at first. Since then..I got really motuivated. The doctor told me to do some basic exercise everyday to help me walk more. Doing them has also help me to lose more inches. It's amazing how fifteen minutes of your time everyday... can help to gain back yourself.

Karipap pusing in the market

Karipap anyone... Inti daging. Make your life easier. Tak yah keluar cari kuih bila petang. Keluarkan je dari freezer and goreng at low heat.

Ikan pari or stingray

I found that looking at stingray from under them make them look less scarier and much cuter.

Memoirs of a Kelisa

About a year ago, this is what has happened to my kelisa. My abah was using the car to buy roti canai. Fortunately, nothing serious happen to abah. After a year... my kelisa, is still going strong....

Magnetic recovery

A few months back, my father asked to buy a bracelet that is made with a magnet in it. It cost me RM80. It suppose to help you to be a healthier person. At the time. I had no problem with my health while my hubby has high cholesterol level and a little bit of high blood pressure. All that do worries me. So, the bracelet was for him. He used the bracelet once in a while at night.

When I had problem with health some where in September this year. After doctor and doctor and doctor.I saw the bracelet that I gave my hubby and actually try it on. I used it on the day time while my hubby should be using it at night. Bit by bit, I found there is some changes in me. Not much, but there are changes. I could actually move better. Not much, but better. I can walk a longer period of time compared to before. Probably a few minutes more of walking but still there are changes.

I told my hubby about this and he bought me the bracelet in the picture. He wants me to wear it day and night. Right now, I am using the bracelet everyday and night. Hopefully, i will be better.

Boom boom beat

Since hari raya, my children dok berlatih for their concert that is coming on the 24th of November ni. Aku ni plak, dah namanya mama mereka kan. Bagi sokongan moral le katakan and download lagu from the net. Bagi depa dengar and boleh le berlatih with music. Not just menyanyi dengan cara mereka sendiri.

Alahai... since aku download... rumah aku tak dapat dengar lagu lain. Lagi boom boom beat je lah...

Business for sale

Someone contacted mu yesterday regarding my business that I am selling. I told him that I am not as mobile as before as he asked me the reason why I am selling the business. Bu, it is just that he was not able to register it in his mind that I cannot manage the business anymore. He was thinking buying business and I work under him. I can't drive long distance anymore and I surely can't walk and work as much as before. I do look normal but it is really painful is all I am feeling. In and out. So... anyone.... the boutique is really for sale. It is such a great business. I am very sad to let it go.